2025 Reflection
From mudfairy's reflective questions! I already kinda looked back on 2025, but this is a nice little food for thought thing to wrap up the year (and push away my grief post on goatlings) LOL.
- What small joys or sensory details defined this year for you?
Sunlight on the skin, the muscle burn from a walk, smell of cooking in general (and the waft of spices when I walk.)
- What is/are your 1-3 favorite photo(s) that you took this year?
- What self-transformations happened?
Does joining the indie web count? I've kinda gotten a little more in touch with myself and also finally came to the ... I've never thought about my own gender much since I'm still very detached from it as a concept for my own self? I've explored it through my characters, but always just kinda shrugged at my own. 'I'm a girl but it's whatever' sorta energy.
I realized demigirl and cassgirl kinda embody how I personally feel about it, even if I also still identify as cis if only for the fact of 'identifying (I guess) with what I was born as and just using the singular pronoun set associated with it'. Some anxiety still exists over it, worries that people will look at it and be like 'yeah you're just cis these labels don't mean anything to you' even though it's how I feel by the end. Girl-thing that just barely feels like a girl.
Aside from that, kinda just getting more used to figuring out what organizational/functioning systems my brain likes. I'm in the process of writing a blog post about what systems have helped me, which is ... err, I'll eventually finish (probably next year LOOOL).
- What did you learn about your own energy, boundaries, and needs?
Getting in Spirit City as my studying/working tool has kinda helped me figure out how I work best ... in terms of ... well, scheduling sucks ASS for my brain LOL. At least granular scheduling, leaving a vague, open 'work on this thing' kinda helps + doing the pomodoro method in the process.
- What did you release this year, intentionally or naturally?
My site!!!!! ... oh wait, unless it's letting go of.
Um ... I guess the need to keep up my social medias + discord groups...? I still kinda feel bad cause I want to interact with people, but it's been a genuine struggle to talk much outside of my certain spheres (tumblr, treefort, neocities comments). I would like to be a little more active on Pillowfort, but it's a bit of a struggle as well, which makes me sad because it's very lowkey and chill.
- Which relationships helped you grow?
Neocities oomfs ... it's been such a breath of fresh air to see people just be ... themselves? Re-wired my brain a little bit to be here.
- What creative ventures do you want to pursue next year?
More art, hopefully ... I've been in a bad burnout since mid 2024, so it's been hard to feel motivation to make art for myself. I hope next year I have at least one art piece per month for myself, even if it's just a little shitty doodle. I also want to write more on Sylvie's roleplay blog, or try to, after the same burnout. Obviously more site work, I wanna finish up some of my to-do pages.
- What do you want to leave gently behind?
I second Minty on Windows OS /j ... to be fair I'm not sure. Staying up too late maybe.
- If you could offer yourself one sentence of compassion, what would it be?
Don't beat yourself up for something taking longer than you planned, or distractions kicking in. Tomorrow is another day.