Hobbies turned to jobbies
Half a joking title, half not. It's mostly something I've been thinking on since I've caught myself thinking today that I should open myself up to custom website commissions that are more on the whimsical fun side and not Boring Modern Corporate (part of this was stress with trying to figure out my developer contract right now and stressing that I might lose it just due to various bumps in the road).
And the thing is ... do I want to? I enjoy making websites so far, I like working on my own personal site, and the concept of making nice sites for others, but like ... do I want to? Do I have to?
It's a weird answer of yes and no. It's fun for me, it's fun to work on something that I enjoy ... but the thing with commissions like this is having commissioners that allow a large degree of freedom, or give me a set layout I'm to work within. I either need to allow myself to go ham and test out layouts and have inspirations, or be given a layout they'd like for me to recreate and know I have a Goal and a Box to work within.
And some part of it cycles back to Capitalism, which sucks. It sucks that I feel like I have to put my skills I've learned for fun to sell them in some degree or another, since finding jobs has been a nightmare even with a bachelor's degree. It's been a nightmare since I've graduated in 2020 and had to forcefully leave my one job I struggled to get in the first place, and so my mind always churns to somewhere like 'what else can I do?'
(I will say at least on VGen people who do sell HTML/CSS sites are not a lot, so it's a niche ground that doesn't have a lot of people present)
For the time being I won't, but god damn if I'm not considering it to some degree. Maybe if I reach a point of feeling comfortable enough in my own coding (cause god knows I can only do front-end stuff), I might consider it ... but for now, I'll just stay and tinker with my own website, and maybe try making more free templates for people.